![]() Reference: Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary and Thesaurus, Merriam-Webster Incorporated, Massachussetts, 2007. And when you decide to laugh with everyone and let it go, that’s when you realize that all these moments that we experience, good or bad, exhilarating or embarrassing, are all a part of what makes life exciting. At that point, I thought I’d never live it down, but I did. And guess what, there’s no getting ready or planning ahead. But let me tell you something, it can, and it just might. When you see embarrassing things happen to people, you think, that won’t happen to me. I really can’t remember what people said to me after, only that people looked at me funny, like they pitied me or were trying to hide their laughter. I knew that I couldn’t continue singing with the humiliation I felt so I just turned back, walked out of the gym and went home. Just kill me right now…just kill me right now, I thought. Usually this wouldn’t really matter if we were all adults or at least even college students. All I could remember was feeling my legs trip over something and next thing I could feel was the dirty floor on my face. I thought I had climbed up all the steps… You can imagine what happened next. I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I wasn’t looking where I was going. The place was packed! The gym looked a lot bigger than normal. As we got on the stage, I looked out to the audience. My two friends went out first and I was following behind. Finally they called our name and we got up. I looked down at my hands and realized I was shaking and sweating. The act before us went up and were about to finish. I asked them if it was too late to back out, they said yes. This was the most embarrassing moment that I faced and after this, I went to another new. I looked over at my friends expecting some encouragement, but from the look of their faces, they might have needed it more than me. On that day I was very embarrassed and everyone started laughing. As act after act went up and performed, I started feeling more and more nervous. After a few weeks of practice, it was time for the show. I agreed on the conditions that I would only be singing backup and nobody would have to hear my voice. They continued begging, and weirdly, I finally agreed. They begged and pleaded but I stood firm. I’m not a great singer, so I quickly dismissed the idea, telling them that they could perform it if they wanted, but to exclude me. When I was about 13, some friends of mine thought it would be cool to sing a song for our school’s talent show. When I was younger, people would tell me, if you get scared of all those people looking at you, just imagine them in their underwear. Ever since I can remember, I’ve tried to shy away from situations where I would have to be in front of a group of people. However, one experience remains in my mind. I’ve had my fair share of embarrassment, let me tell you. An experience that will probably be hard for onlookers to forget. No one can really escape it, at one point or another, something will happen that will be burnt and etched into your memory. “Feelings of self-consciousness, shame or humiliation” (Merriam-Webster’s). ![]()
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